It Ain't Any Easier.

I know that writing a blog will help me through the tears. I can't write while my eyes are so blurrry! So I have to get the tissues out and mop up the grizzles!
I am writing to you, my dear husband, because there are so many things that I need to tell you - and I know that you would have a good laugh - cry - think - and ponder about what is going on with my life now that you are gone.
You know why I named this blog - I love you - Sixpence. That is what my dad used to ask us when we were little - "How much do you love me?" and our reply was "Sixpence" And for all of the years that we were married - I loved you - SIXPENCE!
I don't have any pictures to post - I haven't used the cameras for many weeks - but promise I will post some soon.
Life has been very busy - trying to get all of the paperwork sorted out with your company. What a bunch of wallies! I have had to send your death certificate to 2 different departments because they don't communicate with each other! Arggggg! What a load of tripe!
Anyway - we have had some good news too. Mike had his 50th birthday - Wow! I can hardly believe it. It gets me in the mood to go back to writing my experience of the time I spent in the the home for unmarried mothers - I must do it before I pickle my brain with all of the drugs that I am now taking for breathing problems - blood pressure problems - wetting my knickers problems! LOL Getting old stinks! Especially when you wet yer knickers!
Just a couple more things today that I know you will be interested in. Remember that ramshackle bar down the road called "Al's Place?" We used to say that one day we would have to stop in there for a cold one. Well, it was taken over through eminent domain and about 10 days later bulldozed to the ground! So - It is now an empty field - Boo-Hoo
I got an email from a bloke in Calgary, Alberta who is the great-grandson of Ruth Rebecca - one of my darling Home Children. I was thrilled to bits and am copying all of the records to send to him. Keeps me busy between my tears.
I love you and miss you every day - and will start writing to you because I need to.
xxxxxx