Well, That Didn't Work Out So Well!

I drove down to Pechanga at about 11:00 and stopped into Kelsey's Lounge first to have a bite of lunch while I played a slot machine. WELL, they have removed all of the slot machines from Kelsey's and so I showed my disgust by stomping my feet and going over to The Round Bar, where they don't serve food but at least they have a gazzillion slot machines - and beer.

I sat next to a lady who won $750 - lucky so and so. I wonder if she needs new gnashers too?

Well, I couldn't win a sausage and after a couple of hours and 3 beers, I was bored to death and not looking forward to the 45 mile trip back home. I do wish that you were with me - we used to have some good fun on the slot machines and you were never po'd if I lost. Now I don't like going alone - so I don't think I will anymore.

I drove home and stopped by the new little Mexican hole in the wall that has opened up on the main road. The food is out of this world - and cheap! I had a bean and cheese burrito with avocado, sour cream, cilantro and green sauce. It weighed about 6 lbs and cost me all of $3.75.

I was so happy to get home and sit on the couch next to my little electric fire - shoving good grub down me neck.

I'm not sure what I'm doing today - other than writing to Alex - if I can think of the right words to say.

Do you remember when we went to the Mission San Luis Rey while on our way to Encinitas? - It was so pretty. I especially liked the pub at the bottom of the road. A very handy place to slurp some suds and look at the mission at the same time! Almost a religious experience!

Missing you so much that it hurts. xxxxxx

Birds and a Boat

I am finally starting to feel better - the poor old lungs still have a few more puffs in them! Mike and Dee came on Thursday and bought me some water jugs - I couldn't manage them as they are so heavy and make me too short of breath. Dee has offered to take me to the dentist on 10 Feb and that is a relief - I didn't want to have to hire a taxi.

I had to get a medical release from Dr. K before the dentist will start his work - so I drove up to see Sharron on Thursday. She is still the BEST hugger in the world! I saw my luscious Dr. K and he says that I have no restrictions regarding the gnasher project. So - onward and upward.

I went stark raving mad at the bank yesterday (not unusual) I had received a letter confirming that my 2 children are the beneficiaries of the CD account that I have - if I get run over by a bus they get to split the account - $6! However, on the confirmation letter, they had spelled both of the kids names wrong! Arggg! I spoke to the bank manager and she gave me some cock and bull story about people not having very good handwriting these days! WHAT! I told her that if the bank can't hire people who can write - then I shall take my money to a bank where people can. She got a bit flustered and promised to have everything fixed by Monday. Why do people make life so difficult?

I talked to Joni yesterday - she is doing really well. We have received an invite to a do at Sacred Heart in March - a celebration type of thing. I told her I shall go as long as the weather is OK. I don't want to drive up that mountain road in the snow.

I'm going to the casino at Pachanga today - The lucky twitch in my eyebrow is telling me that I shall win millions.

Do you remember when we went to Newport and saw that old boat on the shore - and the fog bank in the distance? Another one of our lovely days. I'm so glad I have my cameras - such lovely memories captured.

Miss you more each day xxxxxxx

The Cost of Beauty!

You would be so proud of me - I went to the dentist to get an estimate on a new partial. WELL, In order to have a new partial, I'm going to have to have 4 crowns yanked out of me gob! AND, 4 other teeth ground down and crowned to make room for the partial. $12 million!

The dentist is everso nice - His name is Dr. Dimitri and so I thought he was Greeek but he's Egyptian - a bit Omar Sharif ish - by the way - did you know that Omar Sharif's middle name was Dimitri? And anyway - who cares?

I got a big surprise on Monday when I get a letter from our grandson A. He has ended up where we thought he would - silly chap - and he has a girl friend who is in the pudding club. Lordy, Lordy! I don't whether to knit booties or poke me eyes out with the needles!

I got a notice the other day that our dear old Tax Accountant, George had died in October. His daughter, a CPA, has taken over the business and I shall call her after Feb.1 - as I think the taxes are going to be very complicated. - maybe I'll send the IRS me old gnashers as payment!

My relationship with my offspring is still very strained. I don't know how to make up for all the years that I was the world's most terrible mother and caused them to live miserable, cruel and selfish lives at the age of 50.

The garage door opener has gone to meet it's maker! I will have to get someone to install a new one. Shame when you have to pay people to do jobs around the house. Oh well, at this rate, there won't be any dosh left for the ungrateful ones. Hehe!

The rain has finally stopped and I did a good check of the roof - no leaks! Yea! I also took the car in for service and they had it smogged for me - I went straight down to AAA and got my new tags so that is that job for another year. Now I'm going to arrange a trip to Tucson.

I miss you so much - there is so much to do alone and some days I can't stop crying long enough to see what I'm doing. I wish you would come home - but I know you won't. I love you.

Do you remember when we went to Redlands? What a nice day we had. I have saved that shirt that you are wearing - I can't let it go xxxxxxxxxxxxx

It's Raining - it's Pouring!

Sorry that I haven't written for a few day but have been busy trying to be a handy man - gardener and car mechanic!

Johnny came over yesterday and cleaned out all of the gutters. Some other bloke was supposed to show up - HA - I hate when people don't show! Anyhoo - Johnny did a good job and flushed out me downspout (dirty bugger!) and now all the plumbing is 100%

It has rained quite a bit today but nothing horrendous - but they say it will be really bad by Wednesday. I shall hide under the bed. With my teddy - and my binky! Wish you were here.

I talked to both Fran and Di yesterday. It was good to speak to them - Di offered me some good advice- as she always does. We both hold you in our heart.

Did I tell you that I have an appt with Dr. Nelson on Wednesday ? Me poor old lungs have about caved in and my back is in agony. I am using your very fancy walking stick. Now I really feel like an old lady!

Love you and miss you forever xxxxxxxxxx

I hope you like the picture - it was when we went to Encinitas in 2005- wish we could go again

Cars - Teeth - Wind!

I have been so busy today that I am ready to lie on the living room floor with an IV line of Bailey's hooked up to my "whatever" so that I can have some rest!

I took the rental car back - $89. T'would be nice to have kind relatives or children or neighbors so that I don't have to rent a car- ho hum - but they are all too busy doing their own thing - so don't have time to drop my car off and pick it up - Ah Well - I shall remember. It seems as though Sonny and his crew did a good job on the car except that the tire pressure light keeps coming on - Argggg! I took it back this afternoon and it seems that one of his slaves had pumped the tires up to 37psi - Arggg! I told him to let it down to 34psi and now the light has gone out and it is feeling much better.

I have finally got up the gumption to go back to Dr. R. the dentist from Hades - to try and get him to fix my partial - which I have been trying to wear but it is worse than a chastity belt on yer knashers! Or - I imagine. Anyway, Dr. R wasn't there - he only comes in 2 days a month - I'm not surprised - people are probably waiting outside the front door to stone him! I now have a new dentist - Dr. D. He is Egyptian and I think I love him! LOL - Actually, I am very confidant that he will fix all my knashers - although it may cost me $5000 - but that's OK - the kids can look at my teeth when I'm dead! LOL

The wind has come up this afternoon - and now I'm afraid that the ash tree will fall down on top of me while I'm in bed - what a bugger that would be before I got my tooths fixed.

I hope you like the picture of the rose - I do.

Love you and will miss you forever

I Hate Cars!

Hello my love. I had a very busy day today but it made me feel good and I hope that I shall sleep well tonight.

I took some clothes and shoes to the Goodwill - and - as usual - I cried. I hate giving away part of our lives. - but I don't want to become a packrat and I really do want to clean out the house so that I can sell it and move. There are too many memories here.....and it is such a lonely place.

I took my car down to Sonny's shop to get a tune up and get it smogged. He is going to give it a good once over. I'm feeling good about that as I think I shall drive out to see D next month and I need the car to be in good nick.

I have rented a car for 2 days while my car is in the shop - it's a Kia Rio and it is SO CUTE. As you know, Rio (by Duran Duran) was one of my most fave songs - so- there you are - it gives me something to sing!

The key won't open the driver's side door on the Toyota - grrrr - but Sonny is getting a locksmith to fix it - $75! Arggggg

I have not heard from my children - what else is new?

I went to the park yesterday and did 50 push-ups on the bar! And if you believe that..........

Rain is coming tonight and I am so happy - the lawn is gasping.

I love you and miss you and wish you were here
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It's Been a Long Time - and Lots of Tears.

I couldn't write to you for so long because the tears wouldn't stop. Now I'm going to try and tell you about my days - and also ask you what I should do about the people in my life who have no clue how much my heart hurts.

I was invited to a certain someones house for Thanksgiving. The matriarch of the clan was in charge of the food and I arrived with the stuff to make roasted spuds for my son - you know how much he loves them. As soon as I put the spuds and baking dish on the kitchen table, I was met with a tirade of "I already made mashed potatoes - we don't need roasted potatoes - it's too much food - why do we have to have two kinds of potatoes? -there is no room in the oven - and on and on and on. This displays of ill manners went on for 30 minutes. How sad. Where I was raised, if someone bought a dish for the meal it was welcomed with open arms - even if it was pureed baby spinach! Some people are just plain rude! I will not go to any of her candlelight suppers again.

I was asked what I would like for Christmas - the first Christmas without my darling. I decided that I needed a new bird bath as the other one is falling to bits. The person who asked me about the gift asked me twice - so I don't believe that there was any confusion. What I got for Christmas was an egg poacher. I have a stinking feeling that it was a gift that they didn't want and passed on to me. Hey HO! - I'll try putting it in the garden but don't think the birds will be thrilled. AND - I shall go and buy my own bird bath - Merry Christmas Folks!

I sold your car - I didn't want to but it seemed such a waste of money to keep paying the insurance. I watched it drive down the road and cried a million tears.

I closed the bank account for our granddaughter and sent her a cheque. She hasn't called!

I am hoping to find a handyman to come and clean the gutters out - they are full of leaves and we are supposed to be in for some heavy rain for the next month or so.

I talked to D the other day and I might drive to Tucson to visit her - she is the one person who can hold my broken heart.