Hello my darling John,
Today has been a terrible day and I had a hard time getting through it. My darling daughter - who, as you know, I adore, is on one of her hate mother crusades and I am about ready to smash everything in the house and just run away. My granddaughters don't speak to me anymore - or even call me on the telephone. God knows what I have done to make them hate me.
I called several agencies this afternoon to ask for some counselling help. At least 2 of them asked me which church I attend - and when I said NONE - they politely told me that they couldn't help me. Cor struth - why do I have to go to church. I don't believe in the God person because he has never helped me. I have now lost my darling Julie, who died, my wonderful husband who suffered so badly with cancer and died. And now I have lost a psycho daughter who has poisoned her daughters against me. I'm getting ready to chuck it in. There is no point in living in this place alone and getting up each morning with more tears.
The daffodils are coming out in the front garden - tomorrow I shall take some pictures. In the meantime here is a photo of the garden cactus.
I love you
No comments:
Post a Comment